Fashionista always said that if you are chubby or fattie in my own word, never ever try to wear horizontal strips shirt. Except you want to look fater than usual. And also for skinny type, be away from wearing a vertical strips shirt or you will look like 'kerangka'. AHAHA.
Here, i am nobody to talk about fashion but it was a funny thing. There is a guy name K** in myspace. He added me to be one of my friends, but he never greet me or even say thank for approved his friend's request.
When i was looking around to deleting stupid or in other word, 'belagak' peeps in my friends list, i saw his picture. Look nice and just okay, he's not HOT at all. But he's never say thank for accepted him. But, Im Ayyman. Ayyman Tak Kesah. So, do i care?. i wanted to delete him, but before that i saw his picture's album first. AHAHAH. Shame on me ryte?.
And, there is a picture that attractived me, at first lah, (picture at above is just an example) then i read all the comments from his friends. And and, about 3 peoples said that he is now look fat or chubby even in this fasting month. :) and as you know, trick to increase picture's comment is, post by ourself or in a better phrase, replying picture's comments. AHAHAHA. yes, i do that too. ;) just for fun. Ahaahah.
He replied, "Baju tuh jalur melintang lah! Sebab tuh nampak gemok".
ahah. tell me what? ;))
I just read this guy's blog. He wroted something about our old messagging-conversation. This fucking matter actually happened about a year ago. but i still keep thinking. probably, about this matter. Shit! How could this happen? Ayyman, be strong. forget him. he is just your old friend. nothing much to care about. ;|
my friends told me that the thing had happened for a long time ago. and that guy already forgot about this things out, perhaps. I have tried to appologized, but he never replied me, either my text or through my friend that might be his friend too. Actually, this is not something big matter but i knew that i'm guilty towards him. i have said something nonsense to him, i wish that is not me, myself sent those SMS. i am really regretted about what had happened a year ago. my friends also told me to ignored that guy if he still refuse to answers me. but, i really want to tell him that i am really sorry for what i have done to you. maybe on that time, i am still un-matured and really can't see and think about adults matter.
And also, I read his friend's comments. mostly, they said that i'm a desperate one. i agree with them. maybe that moment i really desperated. and that is why i sent him those nonsense text. and here, i have accepted that i was wrong. just i hope, forgive me for what i have done to you before. if you never want me to be your friend like a year ago, it is okey. i understand that. but, just one thing i would like to know, do you appologized me?
Please, answer me. ;|
My family && i moved on to kuala kangsar about a month ago. no more kelantan. but, hati aku still kat kelantan. i really dislike this kuala kangsar && environment here. so bored. i have no friends over here. i have no one beside my family.
I really want to go back to kelantan. i really missed everythings over there. friends, pasar ramadhan, terawih, everythings. but but, kalau aku balik sana, what about my family here? mungkin kalau aku balik beraya sana, mereka akan rasa lain, berbeda dari sebelumnya. tapi, aku memang tidak boleh hidup disini. tanpa seorang rakan, setiap hari, aku hanya berada dalam rumah, watch tv, tidur. how long this things will happen? aku memang tak boleh tahan. sangat membosankan.
Sekarang, aku memang tidak dapat berfikir samada aku patut stay sini atau balik kelantan. tapi, aku kalau boleh tidak mahu family aku terutama sekali mama && abah aku berkecil hati jika aku balik sana. Ini bukan bermakna aku tidak bersyukur kerana masih mempunyai ibubapa, just aku cuma belum boleh terima keadaan di tempat baru aku ni. Aku memang ingin sambut raya tahun ni or tahun depan, && kalau boleh sampai bila-bila, aku nak beraya bersama family aku. tapi, aku sesungguhnya tidak boleh tinggal sini dengan hanya duduk di rumah, tanpa berbuat apa-apa, tanpa keluar lepak-lepak dengan kawan-kawan && etc. sesungguhnya aku memang tidak boleh. tidak boleh!
Aku sangat bersyukur sebab kedua ibubapa aku masih ada bersama aku sehingga kini, kalau dibandingkan dengan orang lain yang telah kehilangan ibu atau bapa mereka mahupun kehilangan kedua-dua insan paling mulia, (Al-fatihah untuk mereka yang telah pergi meninggalkan kita) tapi keadaan memaksa aku. sampai bila harus aku bertahan dalam keadaan ini, sampai bila keadaan ini akan berlarutan?. aku memang tidak tahu. tapi aku hanya mampu berdoa dengan harapan semua ini akan berlalu dengan pantas. aku tidak sanggup lagi duduk dalam keadaan yang sangat membosankan ini. :(
Sesungguhnya jika ia merupakan suatu petunjuk, akan aku berusaha untuk mendapatkannya.
Harap ia bukanlah sekadar permainan tidur sahaja. Sesungguhnya aku amat menginginkan apa
yang menjadi mainan tidur sebagai realiti dalam hidup aku. ;D